Oh MirMir, I feel your pain. Try your hardest not to stress yourself over it. Would your family be completely against the idea of your being a nonbeliever? You could possibly broach it softly, that's what I did, and soon as I realised it wasn't going anywhere or that my mom kinda got the gist of where I was going with it, we left it there. Your answer is not deceptive at all, it rings true to how you feel and your current experience with religion. You're not an evil wrongdoer, ok?
Thank you, D luver, for your kind response. I suppose I wasn’t clear though.
I made the unfortunate decision to air my loss of faith after a viewing of The Passion…you know, the Mel Gibson one. It was a bad, bad idea. Bad idea. I should have done what you did and broached it softly. Instead, I barreled straight through the gates of Hell (at least according to my parents.) Luckily, my parents were able to…not accept it, but deal with it. It’s still prickly, but we survive under one roof.
My deal is that I’m not being honest with the people I go to church with, the people that have been very kind to me and trust me with the SPIRITUAL education of their children. I’m continuing to deceive them for very, very selfish reasons: 1) I love teaching 2) I love children and they make having to go to church a satisfying experience.
I’m just sort of stuck and my parents are put in a position of not being able to tell anyone lest I get crapped on. Also, it would hurt them more to have people like…feel sorry for them. I don’t man.
But again, thank you.
Stephen Fry needs his own tv show. Once a week for an hour he and Craig will go on TV and discuss issues with each other. No politicians or government officials, just Stephen, Craig, and the occasional guest.
"Bullet wanted to lean across to Tommy, lean across the years, really, and yell at him. ‘You don’t have to be like this, you’ve got other choices; at least tell yourself the truth, nobody can make you lie to yourself."